Potty Time!

I had to post immediately! My sweet little Jude just went peepee in the POTTY!!!!!! I have never been more proud haha. I was changing his diaper and could tell he had to go. So, I placed him on the toilet and said a couple times "go pee pee in the potty" and he did!!! What a smarty pants!

Good Nights.

It's nights like last night that make it ALL worth it. We didn't do anything crazy or spectacular, but it was still so wonderful. In fact, we did chores haha. After Eb got home  from school, he decided to stay home with us instead of heading back out to play basketball (that alone made me soo happy because I barely see the kid!). Then we remembered that we needed to clean out the fridge before I new one was delivered in the morning. So we spent about 30 minutes throwing away old food, rinsing dishes, and organizing the remaining food. We did it together and we both had good attitudes about it. After that we split forces and tackled the next chores on the list. Eb bathed the kids while I ran around the house and straightened it up (something I like to do every night so I don't feel like I live in chaos). The kids were wonderful! Eb filled the bath for Jude and held Emery in the water with him, it was the cutest thing. After that, Jude went to sleep & Emery feel asleep after eating. Eb & I took advantage of this rare opportunity of having BOTH kids asleep at the same time and we made a healthy-ish fruit salad and sat down together to watch a show. It was such a wonderful night! It's so nice to have a peaceful home (because it doesn't happen all the time!!).

Anxiety.

For as long as I can remember I have NEVER been able to do anything on my own. Before I got married (probably high school age) I could go to the bank, doctor, grocery store, mall, movies, ANYWHERE by myself. I always had to have my mom or someone with me. I've gotten a little better... but it's still a pretty big problem. Now I'm able to go to doctors appointments by myself, but that's about it. I never knew why I couldn't do any of these things, I didn't know what was stopping me and why I would freak out at the thought of being alone. This part of me drives Eb NUTS. I have to wait for him to get home and either have him go with me to the grocery store or have him go by himself instead. Eb thinks it's anxiety... I still have no idea, but that sounds pretty accurate to me. I've even tried to leave the house angrily when Eb refuses to go with me, but I just end up sitting in the car in the driveway for a little bit until he eventually gives in. It's pretty pathetic. I've decided that this is something that I really need to work on. It stops me from being able to do so many things. I'm never able to go shopping unless someone is with me, and most of the time there is no one to go with me! I guess it's just going to take a while to get over this... since it's something that I've lived with my ENTIRE life. Eb & a friend suggested that I start small like going to Walgreens and knowing exactly what I want, getting it, and then leaving. Even that freaks me out... Ahh I need to get over this!